G-DAY 💌
As I've entered my 30s, I've encountered numerous profound lessons, each unique from those of my 20s. Over the past couple of years, I've gained a deeper understanding of my current position in life and the direction in which I aspire to move. I've come to realize that true happiness originates from within, and it's essential to find solace amidst challenging circumstances. While I strive to approach situations with maturity, it's an ongoing process. I'm learning to make thoughtful mistakes and consider the consequences before taking decisive actions. This introspective journey has allowed me to find closure within myself, enabling me to confront and conquer the daily challenges I encounter. I've granted myself the space to acclimate to different individuals just as they are, recognizing the complexity of human nature, despite seeking a fresh start to heal past regrets. Peace has become my ultimate pursuit, a yearning that has resonated within me since childhood. The need for solitude has become increasingly pronounced, especially when I feel overwhelmed by a surge of words and emotions. There are moments when I simply yearn for quiet, not out of distress, but as a means of decluttering my mind.
Since this month marks my birthday, I’ve decided to take a step back and embrace solitude, dedicating this special time solely to myself. Last year’s birthday was quite challenging, filled with disappointments that left a lingering shadow over the day, and I’ve grown weary of those feelings. Now, I’m recommitting to the practice of enjoying my own company and exploring the joys of being alone. I find myself rediscovering the excitement that life can offer, intentionally focusing on the idea that my happiness is mine alone to cultivate. I have made a promise to myself that no one, and especially not on my birthday, will have the power to dampen my spirit. As I reflect on this journey, my mind has found a more peaceful state, and I’m determined not to let stress take a toll on my well-being. I genuinely believe that this year is shaping up to be something truly magical. I’ve decided to create my own narrative, one where obstacles and negative emotions won’t derail me.
With a positive mindset and a huge smile on my face, I write this post, filled with hope and excitement for the future. I am in love with the person I am evolving into, and I recognize that this is just the beginning of a healthier, happier chapter in my life. Each day is a step forward, a brick laid in the foundation of my newfound joy, and I’m looking forward to embracing every moment. Entering your 30s with grace" means approaching this new decade of life with a positive mindset, accepting the changes that come with age, embracing self-awareness, and prioritizing your well-being while still maintaining a youthful energy and openness to new experiences.
💙Cheers to a year of learning, listening, and self-love. 💙
Music For Love
2024, I’m happy to see you go. Even though I had some great days, the bad ones really showed me a lot. You demonstrated that no matter how hard life gets, I can find a way out and keep myself afloat during tough times. You guided me through rough patches in my life that I never thought I would experience. I thank God for the days when the trials felt too hard, but I managed to keep my head up. I’m grateful to be surrounded by people who truly understand me. Overall, I’m content with my life; things could be worse. Next year, I aim to set higher goals for myself, and I believe it will be a great start to something new.
During those tiring times, I always turned to music as my escape. Music has shaped me in many ways and has been incredibly helpful. I would often leave the house, take a walk, and listen to various types of music. Don’t get me wrong; I have my top five favorite songs that I listen to on repeat, but there’s something about music that helps me embrace my emotions. This post isn’t about creating sadness; it’s more about embracing your feelings and understanding the patterns in your life that you can change. Improvement can only start with you. You only get to decide how you want to be happy. We, as individuals, often pursue more than we truly need, even when we already have enough.
Summer Back Home
I've been contemplating a fresh start. Although starting over is difficult, it offers valuable experiences and builds character. I don't regret my decision to be here in New York - it's been humbling. However, I've realized that New York isn't where I see myself in the long run. As I get older, I find that patience is something I lack; I want things to happen instantly. But I've learned that everything takes time. That's why I prioritize my free time. Writing down my thoughts and releasing pent-up emotions has been crucial for my well-being. This summer has been a much-needed opportunity for self-reflection. There's no fear of missing out for me; I'm determined to pursue the things I've put off for so long and focus on a positive future. I've even made a list of the pros and cons of being home. I once dreamed of living a "Sex and the City" lifestyle, but the reality is different. The cost of living in New York is high, and the city's constant hustle and bustle is wearing me out. I've been feeling the pull of a slower-paced life, and I'm considering a move to London. I believe it's the Aquarius in me, always seeking adventure. I've promised myself to set achievable goals while I'm here and embrace simplicity. As I get back into the swing of things, I know everything will fall back into place. I returned for friends and family, but I've realized that I need personal space to breathe, think, and succeed. I'm ready to explore new possibilities, save money, and live life to the fullest. A farm or small home where I can have a garden and grow my own produce sounds appealing to me. I'd also like to grow my own Mary Jane (plays Rick James). I need to apologize to my friends for my sometimes reclusive tendencies, but it's essential for me to recharge. Activities like catching up on sleep, watching my favorite show "Charmed," bike riding, and visiting the library have been rejuvenating for me. The smell of books and the serenity there provide a much-needed escape for me to decompress. Well, I tend to ramble, and this is starting to get a bit long, so I'll sign off now *Plays "No Doubt - It's My Life"*
GOV Ball 24
I had the most amazing time reuniting with my college best friends at home and kicking off the summer festival season! Our bond has grown stronger through music festivals, and our first Gov Ball experience was unforgettable when Lana performed. And now, we're doing it again, the crowd just keeps getting younger while we keep getting older. You know what that means? Time for a VIP upgrade! We scored one-day passes for SZA, and let me tell you, seeing her live was everything I needed and more. It was an epic day filled with non-stop fun, laughter, and maybe a few tears of joy. Festival season is officially here, and the thrill of summer in New York City is incredible. I can't wait to see what other epic adventures await me this summer! New York, I'm back and ready for more!
Here's a list of my top SOS songs
Far
Blind
Ghost in the machine
Seek and destroy
Conceited
Snooze
Smoking on my Ex Pack
Good Days
c'est la vie
I recently had an amazing and spontaneous trip to London after meeting someone in LA. The vibrant energy of the city made it feel just right. London quickly felt like a second home to me - I connected effortlessly with the culture, city, and incredible people. There was so much to see and I found myself walking more, immersing myself in the city after being accustomed to the easy car rides in LA. The streets were immaculate, the food was exquisite, and I felt inspired every day. I had an incredible experience thrift shopping despite the New York prices - I found some remarkable vintage pieces that I'll cherish. To commemorate this unforgettable trip, I even decided to get a tattoo of my favorite, Powerpuff Buttercup. Visiting the Tate Museum was an incredible experience, God brings people into our lives to remind us of the joy of living. I'm incredibly grateful for the person I met and getting to see Tems. I'm looking forward to returning to London, with the next visit possibly being a longer stay. Xo
Escape From LA
I want to thank myself for actually doing what I wanted to do. I moved to Cali for a fresh start, which made me realize much about myself. Growing and learning every day can come with some challenges. I was feeling more lonely rather than alone. I was trapped with a lot of my thoughts. I realized that I need a city with more mobility to do things (It keeps me from being inside my head all the time). I spent too much time alone even tho I had friends nearby, but it wasn't the same, and that was enough for me. I could write a story about how LA isn't for me, but that's too personal. I came here to see what I could do on my own. Boy, did I do a lot. My pop-up, 1st studio apartment, and landing a job at Louboutin that I know I wouldn't have ever gotten in New York. I'm forever grateful for everything; this was a trial and error. I thank all the people I encountered who made LA worth staying; you all made the three years worth it. Also, it was refreshing to spend time with my cousin, who is my puzzle piece. Now that this chapter is over, I can start fresh.
I'll be Bringing a new person back home. I'm always so hard on myself with anything; this made me realize I can do anything. This was a blessing, but it's time for me to go. I want to feel free from the same daily routine happening here—very robotic and not enough life. Something about being here didn't seem suitable for a city full of sunshine. I'm returning to a space where my heart belongs and will be full of life. I'm returning to a City that never sleeps, and this feels so right.
Fresh Start.
I wanted to kick this year off right. I want more for myself than ever, returning to my groove of loving everything around me. Photography was my favorite thing to do when I was younger. I remember begging my mom to get me a camera. As a child, I dipped into many creative things. As a new start, I decided to get back into photography but just as a hobby. I’m happy to share every special moment around me through these photos. I welcome you with a kind heart and loving journey; welcome to my 1st blog post. Happy New Year!
